she was coming, i thought to myself. she is definitely coming. and yet something deep inside me said she wasnt coming. another childish habit i had grown over the years like counting to eighteen.closing my eyes and praying. i know that praying wasnt quite the right word, and the word 'wishing' never seemed to fit either.
happiness? how strange.i didnt rightly know what it means.even that,some part of me was dying. im dying.shes killing me silently.me and her, we could separate and I'll be alone.
well, to start off, as usual i turned to facebook to entertain me.By the time I was finished I had only added about a dozen people but only about a handful did I ever end up talking to.
until i met this beautiful monster (effa nageeha) and this girl seemed like she'd be a great friend. she was funny and she actually listened to me complain about everything. we ended up talking alot from there on, and most of the time she was the only reason i would go online. she was the only person who could put me in a good mood no matter what. after about a week, so we finally talked on the fone.i was so nervous. we were talking the whole night( 10.12.2010) and i was telling her about my feelings. i asked her, more like beg her to be mine. and Ive been rejected. :( start from that day, Ive promised to myself i will never give up on her.
geha is only 14 years old. i had a huge crush on her like i never felt before. well it was one of those fairytale love stories your grandmother would have made up, to convince you to get married.i believed in that fairytale. i believed in love, and her , just as much.
until she suddenly text me and said that i am cute and she wants to be mine.(12.12.2010) weird right? yeah she is. within no time i had all the information bout her set in my head. i wanted to marry her and live happily ever after. all this,without ever knowing whether theres another guy in her life? im pretty sure she would be my future wife. hrmm she suppose to.
the day passed and i passed my SPM .now imma big boy :) i was a boy who is trying to be a man. it felt wonderful. i felt like a prince. i felt cared for. i felt like i got the power to protect someone. i thought i would be happy forever. this was the best times of my life. being with her is the most unforgettable moment.
we shared everything. we cried together, laughing together. take care of each other.
i sometimes cry bcuz of the stuff she does.
that was like a dream, real something i never wanted to wake up. but thts what made it go wrong. :( we broke up and got back together alot. i wish i could be with her again even for a thousand times. we broke up for no reason. shes in love with another guy. she even regret for letting me go. is it wrong for me to take care of my relationship? why is that so many ppl wanted to separate us?
i love her the same way i did when the first day know her. that love had made me a real guy. we can all fall in love plenty of times, but its not always that you come across a perfectly true love story in your own life.
geha i wish i can have u back . :(
i love you princess..
to my lastjuliet EFFA NAGEEHA . <3
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