price tag :D

           guys are actually looking for the same thing as girls.its not easy to find and i wonder how to make girl fall in love.well, i need to look at it pretty logically. hrmm girls are obviously very different than guys.

   i wanna be able to do the little things tht will win her over.hehe i wanna be able to say and do whatever it takes to make her feel the same as i do. 
   

    you and i both know that guy and girl can be quite varied when it comes to love, and comunicate. im trying to find a way to comunicate with her and make her feel the emotions. most guys end up messing things up somwhre along the way. and i dnt want this to happen. no no no no. cuz my love for you is real. 

Love is patient, love is kind. It doesnt envy, it doesnt boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not selfseeking, It is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love doesnt delight in evil. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always preserves.

yes ? no? or no? yes?

Unfortunately, sometimes when a woman says No, they do actually mean Yes. This is extremely confusing, and you have to be very, very careful if you try to move forward after she has said Yes, unless you are certain that she is just playing  

if she says "no"...it is possible she means "yes"....BUT dont try and figure it out...just assume she means "no." If, after a few "no"s you are frustrated, dump her and move on...there are plenty of "yes"s out there and it wont take you long to find one...

jeng jeng jeng !

 

 come live in my heart and pay no rent baby :)
      
its time to change and be a better human . 
i'll always be here for you. :)

     
             come, let us make love deathless :D
           
                 faith , believe and love

3.00 am?

     

            bad bad bad..i cant sleep all night hours pass and pass and i cant sleep . i end up falling asleep around 7am then wakeup at 12pm. how is tht living?? :(  ive tried taking medicine (zolpidem) but tht doesnt work.i would like to try taking 2 but im scared i might overdose? my mind just doesnt seem to shut down. 

                


     night is silent.
     night is beautiful.
     night is calm.
     night is quiet.


but night is not complete without a dream :(
 i cant sleep. so i cant dream. huukkkk :( 

A NEW START

     hurmm let see where should i start? this is special. 
no more reminders from the past. memories of wht ive been, hve vanished at long last :) . i look forward to my future now. i see my life laid out at my feet.soon all memories will depart. i will get off to a new start, with the best is all i can do. time will heal my heart. there is no reason to feel sad.starting over will not be tht bad. yeah i guess so. after all, happiness should never be a test.but its okay to cry. i cried alot. i take things day by day. alhamdullillah,i hve the strength to find my way. 


      starting a new life is like a snake shedding its skin and taking on a new one.starting a new life for me is tht i can laugh at ones thought they were going to do better , but never really made it . 


     new life with new partner? :)
things arent wht they seems to be.i thought i was dreaming .
oh nope,im in reality. i never knw we would be together. u were like a lock, i was somehow the key.i thought the key is falling appart.


    my promise to u is, once i find u.
i will rebuild the piece to your lovely heart.i'll find the wat to rescue u.it wont be easy baby. 


     my love has come tru.
im the key and i unlocked u.
i rebuild and found your lovely heart .
in th end i fell in love with you :) 


   im with someone new, someone diffent. youre new kinda love,youre someone special and closed to my heart...


     i love you so deeply
     i love you so much
     i love the sound of ur voice
     i love ur warm smile 
     i love the joy tht you bring
     i love you today as i have frm the start
     and i will love you forever with all my heart. 

                                                    


   

how it begin and how it ends..

         hum .I don’t know why, but I felt suddenly very dizzy. It was a very bright, lazy, empty Monday night.i tried to give shape to it.for a moment i imagined that i saw something, a dragon and maybe something like Paul (the alien in the movie) , but the form faded in my mind and i realized it had been my imagination. what happen to me? 


    she was coming, i thought to myself. she is definitely coming. and yet something deep inside me said she wasnt coming. another childish habit i had grown over the years like counting to eighteen.closing my eyes and praying. i know that praying wasnt quite the right word, and the word 'wishing' never seemed to fit either.


   happiness? how strange.i didnt rightly know what it means.even that,some part of me was dying.   im dying.shes killing me silently.me and her, we could separate and I'll be alone.


    well, to start off, as usual i turned to facebook to entertain me.By the time I was finished I had only added about a dozen people but only about a handful did I ever end up talking to.
until i met this beautiful monster (effa nageeha)  and this girl seemed like she'd be a great friend. she was funny and she actually listened to me complain about everything. we ended up talking alot from there on, and most of the time she was the only reason i would go online.  she was the only person who could put me in a good mood no matter what. after about a week, so we finally talked on the fone.i was so nervous. we were talking the whole night( 10.12.2010) and i was telling her about my feelings. i asked her, more like beg her to be mine. and Ive been rejected. :( start from that day, Ive promised to myself i will never give up on her. 


  geha is only 14 years old. i had a huge crush on her like i never felt before.  well it was one of those fairytale love stories your grandmother would have made up, to convince you to get married.i believed in that fairytale. i believed in love, and her , just as much. 


   until she suddenly text me and said that i am cute and she wants to be mine.(12.12.2010) weird right? yeah she is.  within no time i had all the information bout her set in my head.  i wanted to marry her and live happily ever after. all this,without ever knowing whether theres another guy in her life? im pretty sure she would be my future wife. hrmm she suppose to. 
the day passed and i passed my SPM .now imma big boy :) i was a boy who is trying to be a man. it felt wonderful. i felt like a prince. i felt cared for. i felt like i got the power to protect someone. i thought i would be happy forever. this was the best times of my life. being with her is the most unforgettable moment. 
     
    we shared everything. we cried together, laughing together. take care of each other. 
i sometimes cry bcuz of the stuff she does. 


    that was like a dream, real something i never wanted to wake up. but thts what made it go wrong. :(  we broke up and got back together alot. i wish i could be with her again even for a thousand times. we broke up for no reason. shes in love with another guy. she even regret for letting me go. is it wrong for me to take care of my relationship? why is that so many ppl wanted to separate us? 
   
       i love her the same way i did when the first day  know her. that love had made me a real guy. we can all fall in love plenty of times, but its not always that you come across a perfectly true love story in your own life. 


    geha i wish i can have u back . :(
i love you princess.. 


                                                                                      


                                                                                          to my lastjuliet EFFA NAGEEHA . <3